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PORN ADDICTION: SILENCE NO MORE

October 24, 2010 at 9:04 pm (Uncategorized) (addiction, help, persevere, porn, xxx)

I’m not entirely sure where to begin.  There are many ways of starting this out.  The easiest way is to say that my name is Ben Landis and I am addicted to porn.  I’m sure there are people who are way more addicted than I am, but nonetheless it has affected not just my own life, but others as well.  It has pretty much been a problem for me since about 7th grade.  It is finally time to deal with this crap!  Over the next few months I will be writing blogs and documenting this struggle as I fight through this addiction.  During this process, I know I am going to learn a lot about myself and find things in my life that I detest.  Now I know some of you are thinking, hasn’t Ben already tried this?  The answer is yes, yes I have.  I tried to stop before, but I wasn’t doing it for myself and that’s what made me ultimately fail.  This is going to be no easy task.  I know there is going to be lots of struggling, suffering, and sorrow.  But I will come out on top.  I have to. 

I’m sure some of you are wondering why is he posting this online?  Who wants to share with the world their problems?  My answer is this:  Yes, of course this is embarrassing to an extent, but I know that I am not alone; a lot of people struggle with this issue.  Porn addiction is one of those things that isn’t really talked about much.  It is the black sheep of addictions.  No more.  It needs to be talked about and discussed.  Hopefully by tearing down my walls, someone who is struggling with this will be encouraged, and decide to join me in dealing with this once and for all.  If there is only one thing I know about porn addiction, it is that there is no way I will succeed without God.  Today is the beginning of day 5.  It’s not much, but it’s definitely a start.